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Wow I haven’t blogged for a while now. Have been quite busy with my new job and all. Its those sucky retail hours kinda job so I am sorry to my dear friends whom I haven’t contacted much for the past few weeks. Stella/Fransca/James DiDi etc etc… I miss you guys too and I promise to catch up with you real soon! Stella, if you are reading this: I will try to arrange for a Thursday off the week after Valentines Day so that we can go party together on ladies’ night. Haven’t done that for a while anyway I’ll drop you a sms later.

I just bought an ultra tiny pink mp3 player! Although some people commented that it looks ugly, I am quite happy with its fuss-free appearance. I don’t need to have those stupid new mp4 functions or stuff like that. As long as it can store my favorite music, have a smooth playback and can create internal folders it is good enough for me. I am a simple girl. If you give me a complicated gadget, I’ll most probably fling it across the room due to frustration. I need something that I can figure out within minutes or else it becomes a burden and not an asset.

The same logic goes for men. What I need is a simple guy who loves me and care for me. Stick with me through thick and thin. Please don’t send me those Casanova types who are so deep and into poetry that they seem a bit psychotic! They can even reason that they love all the women that they have bedded even though they bed a different one every night. A moment of true love my ass. Love is not a passing phase or a short-lived game, it is something carefully cultivated through time and effort between two people. That is why the animated fairytale Beauty and the Beast is much more believable than the stupid Wei Xiao Bao story.

Speaking of which, I know every guy secretly wish to be like that detestable Wei Xiao Bao character! If a guy claims that he does not want to be like WXB, then he is gay because most gays believe in such a thing call soul mates. Even if some don’t, they have proved to be much more loyal than straight men. Ah, we women can never have the best of both worlds. Either he loves you but is naturally equipped with a roving eye (and that is the lightest flaw, he can do much more than just looking) or he is handsome/sensitive/loyal/caring but he fancies your brother/father/boyfriend and NOT you! We are cursed!

Of course there is another alternative for us women. We can learn to love our own kind. Lesbians are a much more common sight nowadays. I see girls holding hands/hugging/kissing in public areas all the time. Okay, not ALL the time but often enough. It used to turn me off but now I kinda look at them with curiosity. How does it feel like to be loved and touched by another woman? How would it feel like to make love with someone who has the same set of genitals? There is absolutely no judgment when I am having these thoughts, just plain curiosity.

However I know I am not ready to try anything new because the reaction I get from seeing Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie naked is totally different (yes there are some real/fake naked pictures of them on the internet and I am dirty-minded enough to search for them). One is the quickening of heartbeats and follow by out of the world fantasies played out in my filthy mind. The other only consists of jealousy and envy (some admiration too).

To summarize it all: Till the day I find that I can love a woman, let me be lucky enough to find a man who can love me like a gay. Er, I mean a straight man who loves me and not my brother but has the good attributes of a gay man but is not a gay. Confusing eh? Nvm… I guess I’ll just occupy my nights with watching Desperate Housewives from now it.